No of Episodes: 39 + 1 epilogue
Author: 乐碗碗 (Lè Wǎn Wǎn)
Multiple Voices: 桧篱, 南瓜楠少, 红樱桃、噗噗、 訫念、 葫芦、 糖果盒子、 薄倾、 兮小颜 、公子悠、 梅公子、清灵、 断空、 沐笙然、 老实书生 、 入目山分、坟头长草 (Gui Li, Nán Guā Nán Shǎo, Hóng Yīng Táo, Pū Pū, Xìn Niàn, Hú Lu, Táng Guǒ Hézi, Báo Qīng, Xī Xiǎo Yán, Gōng Zǐ Yōu, Méi Gōng Zǐ, Qīng Líng, Duàn Kōng, Mù Shēng Rán, Lǎo Shí Shū Shēng, Rù Mù Shān Fēn, Fén Tóu Cháng Cǎo)
This story started with a tragedy. I was sceptical to start at first. I have a whole load of audiobooks on my list that I am trying to finish. This was one of them.
FL’s sister got murdered and FL’s mother blamed FL for her sister’s death. People that lost someone who they love greatly thought it was their right to grief and at the same time they will be forgiven even if their speech was hurtful to those near to them. I wonder whether it is truly their right to hurt someone with their speech or the person that got hurt need to be magnanimous to accept everything from the one that was grieving.
I went through something similar in my life too. Hence, I was reluctant to start the story at first. My brother in law passed away and I got blamed by my mother in law for his death. It was nonsensical as my brother in law died due to sickness. I was pregnant at that time and did not attend the funeral. My husband was not her favourite son hence it was easy for her to direct all her anger towards me. I am not the magnanimous person and what she did to me got me into depression for a few months after the birth of my baby.
FL (Song Wan Feng) and Song Cheng Lu are sisters. Song Cheng Lu is older than Song Wan Feng. Song Cheng Lu likes Gu Liang. FL also likes Gu Liang. One day, SCL told FL that she is going on a date with Gu Liang and asked her to tell their mother that she is going to her friend’s house after school. After school, FL bumped in Gu Liang and surprised that he has changed his clothes and walking towards the school. FL got hurt that Gu Liang did not even notice her as he walks past her. FL’s mother favours SCL more than FL. When FL got home, she ate her dinner and went to sleep. At 10:30 pm, FL got woken by her mother asking has her sister gone to? FL started to panic and suggested that they checked with Gu Liang. FL’s mother did not like Gu Liang because he came from single-parent family.
FL followed her dad to Gu Liang’s house. When Gu Liang said he has not seen SCL, FL did not believe him and said he supposed to meet with SCL at the lakeside based on the card. They notified the police and eventually, the police found SCL’s body in the lake. There were struggle marks on her body. Gu Liang became a suspect but due to lack of evidence, Gu Liang was not charged. FL got questioned a few times as her statement differs from Gu Liang. Gu Liang claimed that he saw FL at one of the streets when he was on his way back from his friend’s house but FL denied seeing him.
On SCL’s funeral, FL got scolded by SCL’s good friend. SCL’s friend said she was said in her statement will cause trouble for Gu Liang. Gu Liang got bullied at school because he was a suspect in SCL’s murder case. Gu Liang came to the cemetery asking for a chance to say goodbye to SCL but got rejected by FL.
FL tried to kill herself after she overheard her parent’s argument. Her father scolded her mother for not paying attention to FL because of her fever. FL’s mother said she rather have SCL alive instead of FL. Ever since that time, FL’s relationship with her mother turned distant. FL is a very quiet person and was not as cheerful as SCL. The family broke apart after SCL’s death. FL and her mother moved to stay with her maternal grandmother in another city.
6 years later….
FL studied at a university and one day, after dinner with her friends, she saw Gu Liang in the back lane of a pub. Gu Liang and two other boys were hitting another boy. FL blamed herself for the change in Gu Liang. After that night, FL went to the pub every day to see Gu Liang. Gu Liang works as a bartender and has many girlfriends. All his girlfriends were not the attractive and quite common looking. He never likes dating pretty girls. FL thought that it was due to SCL that Gu Liang acted that way. In actual fact, Gu Liang has a twin brother called Gu Ling. The Gu Liang that FL saw was actually Gu Ling.
Gu Ling ignored FL just like how he treated all the girls. FL was persistent in talking to Gu Ling. One day, Gu Ling got attacked by 4 men. Instead of running away, FL stayed back to help Gu Ling. Gu Ling asked FL her name. FL said she is Chen Xi Xi and Gu Ling said his name is Gu Ling. FL thought it was fair that both did not use their real name. Gu Ling that she met seems different and far apart from the Gu Liang that she knows before. This FL felt much closer to Gu Ling.
FL went shopping with Bai Wei Wei (University mate) and saw Gu Liang playing violin in a music instrument shop. In that instant, FL saw the Gu Liang that she knows when she was young. Gu Ling was in the shop too but did not see FL. FL also did not notice that Gu Ling was around. FL and Bai Wei Wei walked on and after a while, FL ran back to the shop. Gu Liang and Gu Ling have already left the shop.
FL has not seen Gu Liang for a few days and went to the pub to find him. FL told by one of the men there that he knows where Gu Liang was and said he will bring her to him. When they reach a park, the man tried to molest FL but got hit by FL instead. After the death of SCL, her family encouraged FL to take up self-defence lesson. Gu Ling saw how FL defended herself. FL walked towards Gu Ling. FL called him Gu Liang and said sorry for what she had done and lied about her real name. FL said she only wanted to know whether Gu Liang was living well. Gu Ling already knows that Chen Xi Xi is Song Wan Feng and said a few harsh words and walked away. Gu Ling said only he can bully FL for what she had done to Gu Liang.
A few years ago, Gu Ling and Gu Liang went to visit SCL’s tomb and met FL’s there. Gu Liang accidentally hit his head after being pushed by FL’s mother. After that accident, Gu Liang often mix-up the past with the present. At times, Gu Liang seems lost in the past. The doctor said it will take a long time for Gu Liang to recover slowly. Gu Liang even tried to kill himself once. Luckily Gu Ling managed to send him to the hospital on time. Gu Ling’s mother remarried a Caucasian. His mother told Gu Ling that she found a psychiatrist that can treat Gu Liang and asked him to go with Gu Liang to go overseas for treatment. But Gu Ling refused and rather stayed back to work in his friend’s pub.
When Gu Ling got home, he asked Gu Liang to show him the old photos of him and the Song’s sisters. The next day, FL went to the pub again. At the entrance, FL got hit in the head and fainted. Gu Ling abducted FL and brought to a small house. FL woke up and realised that she got tied up. Gu Ling told FL that he is Gu Liang’s identical twin brother. Gu Ling told FL that Gu Liang has killed himself. Gu Ling said FL’s lies had disappointed Gu Liang and he killed himself because of FL’s betrayal. FL suddenly realised that the person that she saw many years ago was Gu Ling and not Gu Liang. Gu Ling confirmed FL’s statement and said he went to look for Gu Liang that day and since he did not know FL hence he did not acknowledge her. Gu Ling tried to rape FL but when he saw the chain around her neck, he stopped and untied FL and pushed her out of the house. Bai Wei Wei, Zuo Yan and Li Mo Nian found FL later. No one talks about what happened that day.
One day, Bai Wei Wei and Zuo Yan sent FL home. When they almost reached her house, FL said she will walk home from there. Zuo Yan insisted to walk FL home. FL was happy when she saw her father. Zuo Yan met FL’s parents but he left quickly after he saw the hostility from FL’s mother. When Zuo Yan got back to the car, Bai Wei Wei told Zuo Yan about FL’s past. FL’s father told FL and her mother the SCL’s murderer has been sentenced. The murderer was FL father’s colleague.
A flashback ……
It was near SCL’s death anniversary. Gu Ling and Gu Liang stand from a distance outside FL’s house. Suddenly they saw FL sneaked into the neighbour’s house. They followed her. FL sneaked into the murderer’s house to look for a clue but before she found it, she heard the man came home and walked towards his room upstairs. As FL getting very anxious, something crashed downstairs and the man turned back. FL managed to escape and she purposely dropped her hairpin behind. The next day, she reprinted the photos where the man has appeared before. FL went to the cemetery with her family. FL asked her mother not to blame Gu Liang anymore. FL’s parent left first. FL slept at the cemetery. When she woke up, she saw the murderer. FL switched on the recorder in her pocket. The murderer abducted FL and planned to kill her. The murderer did not notice that he was followed. The police arrived on time to save FL. FL’s father told FL that it was Gu Liang that called him to say she was in danger and asked him to call the police. Gu Liang got injured.
FL went back to the pub to look for Gu Ling. Gu Ling told FL that Gu Liang has died. After that meeting, Gu Ling went missing. The pub sold to another owner.
A few years later….
FL went for a job interview. She got a job as a translator but on the first day of the job, she got transferred to become the GM’s secretary. FL went for a gathering with Bai Wei Wei, Li Mo Nian and Zuo Yan. That nite, Zuo Yan confessed to FL that he likes her and want her as his girlfriend. FL asked for more time. During a business dinner, FL shocked to see that the company GM is Gu Ling. Gu Ling bullied FL in the office but FL did not resign.
FL took Zuo Yan home to meet with her parents. Suddenly, she received a message from Gu Ling to meet at the park. It was raining and she ran out of the house. Zuo Yan followed shortly with an umbrella. Gu Ling told FL that he is bringing her to meet with Gu Liang. FL takes a look at Zuo Yan and told him that she needed to go. Gu Ling took FL to the cemetery and told her that Gu Liang did not die. Gu Ling confessed that he lied. FL broke down and cried. FL lived in guilt and grief for the last 9 years. Gu Liang appeared in front of FL and told FL that she needs to walk out from the darkness and start to live again for herself. Gu Ling was the same as well. It was him that wrote that card to SCL many years ago. He purposely did that to make SCL upset with Gu Liang knowing that Gu Liang will not turn up for the date. Similar to FL, Gu Ling felt that he lived behind Gu Liang’s shadow. FL realised at last that the feeling that she had for Gu Liang was brotherly love due to the lack of love she received at home.
When FL got home, her mom said Zuo Yan has left. Zuo Yan left a letter explaining his reason for leaving. FL received a call from Gu Liang to tell that Gu Ling got admitted and from the x-ray, there was a black spot in his lung. There is a possibility that Gu Ling has cancer. FL went to see Gu Ling. A few days later, Gu Liang called FL again to say that Gu Ling discharged without permission. Gu Ling wanted to go travel to Tibet. FL decided to go with Gu Ling and went to train station to wait for him. Gu Ling apologised to FL for how he treated FL in the past. FL insisted to go with Gu Ling to Tibet. While they were in Tibet, they received good news from Gu Liang. The biopsy result came out. It was not cancer.