No of Episodes: 28
Author: 黑颜 (Hei Yan)
Female Voice: 纸浅墨深 (Zhǐ Qiǎn Mò Shēn)
You will notice a similar trait in Hei Yan’s books. It always started with a very sad background for the FL. ML treats FL like shit and then he regrets and starts to make amends. All ended happily. Please be warned that this book has the BL element.
The story started with ML (Feng Yan Bei), the 6th prince of the Han Nan and Yan Zi Ji from Bei Guo has a lovers’ spat. ML felt betrayed after Yan Zi Ji told him that he has to marry a girl. ML broke up with Yan Zi Ji.
FL (Xiang Gui) is a prostitute working in the Xi Bei military camp. Everyone called her Dumb A Gui. FL has a common look and a good heart and never complained of hard work. One day, FL went to the stream to wash her clothes and met a girl called Mo Shang. FL noticed that Mo Shang is someone with high status unlike her. Mo Shang is very friendly and complained how boring is the military camp. FL is the first woman that she met at the military camp and innocently asked where she stayed and planned to ask her out to play. They interrupted by a group of men led by ML. FL has never seen such a good-looking man like ML in her life.
That night during dinner, a famous camp prostitute called Qing Shuang danced for ML and his guests. Qing Shuang attempted to kill ML but failed. Because of the attempt, all the military prostitutes were not allowed to leave their camp. Mo Shang went to see FL and invited her out for a short visit to the nearby town. FL’s good friend, Xiang Yu made friends with Mo Shang hoping to find opportunities to improve her living situation.
When the three girls were shopping on the street, a group of men ride passed through the town and almost kill a little boy. Mo Shang saved the little boy. A man got down on his horse when he saw Mo Shang. The man is Yan Zi Ji, another good-looking man. Yan Zi Ji apologised to the boy’s parents and told Mo Shang he was in hurry to meet with ML.
Back at the camp, Xiang Yu persuaded FL to ask Mo Shang to help them to find another employment. The next day, there was an announcement that they are closing the prostitution camp. Xiang Yu went to the south and FL was given to a soldier called He Zhang Gui who has lost his limb during battle. FL thought if He Zhang Gui treats her well, she was willing to spend the rest of her life living peacefully with him. But He Zhang Gui has a bad-tempered and often hit and scold FL. At the end, FL chose to sleep in the storeroom instead. He Zhang Gui could not do anything to FL as he relies on FL to look after his daily needs.
One day, while they were eating, they heard a knock and saw two men seeking shelter at their house. FL immediately recognised both of them. There were ML and Yan Zi Ji. ML looks heavily injured. Yan Zi Ji gave them money to stay the night and for food. FL cleaned ML’s wound and put medicine on him. That night, He Zhang Gui moved to sleep in the storeroom with FL. In the middle of the night, He Zhang Gui went out to release himself and heard a sound and the lights are still on in the house. He peeped through the gap and got shocked with what he saw.
The next morning, FL found He Zhang Gui dead outside the house. FL suspected that his death related to the two men and decided to leave immediately. Unfortunately, she was found out by Yan Zi Ji. When FL saw that the wounds on ML’s body got worse, she suggested to Yan Zi Ji to send ML to a doctor. FL forced to follow them to help to look after ML.
After the visit to the doctor, that night, ML asked FL to sleep in front of him. FL already guessed the reason as she recalled what the doctor had said about his wound.
ML recalled how he seduced Yan Zi Ji’s fiancée called Ke Er and then abandoned her. Ke Er’s death was caused by ML. ML no longer loves Yan Zi Ji after Yan Zi Ji forced himself on him despite the pains from the wounds he suffered. ML can only rest well when he slept in FL’s warm embrace.
They arrived at Bei Guo and stayed at Yan Nan Hou Fu. ML stayed in the same courtyard when he visits Yan Zi Ji. FL does not understand why ML insisted that she slept with him when there were plenty of pretty maids available. That night while ML sleep soundly hugging her, FL recalled the past where she ran after her mother begging her to take her along when she was leaving her father. Her mother could not stand a husband who gambles all the time. FL sold by her father when she was 15 years old and then sent to the military camp. She spent 6 years at the military camp as a prostitute.
Mo Shang sneaked into the Yan Nan Hou Fu planning to escape with ML. FL begged them to take her along but got rejected. ML gave up when he realised that he could not get away and asked Mo Shang to leave on her own to find help.
Yan Zi Ji invited ML for a drink. It has been a long time since they sit down peacefully for a drink. ML realised that his wine drugged with an aphrodisiac. Yan Zi Ji started to complain about ML causing the death of his fiancée and his beloved toy boy. Yan Zi Ji wants to take revenge on ML. Yan Zi Ji raped ML in front of FL to humiliate him.
ML and FL were locked up in the dungeon. ML’s condition got worse and became unconscious. FL tried her best to care for him in the cool and damp dungeon. FL hugged ML and continued to whisper that they will live and escape. ML woke up at last. ML never thought Yan Zi Ji would truly hurt him. He told himself that he will take revenge. After Yan Zi Ji, ML has lost fate believing in love. ML surprised that FL continued to care for him despite what he did before.
Yan Zi Ji used a drug called Sang Gong Wan to weaken ML to prevent him from using his martial arts. ML suggested to FL to have sex with him so that he can get rid of the remaining of drugs from his body through sweating. FL hesitated at first worrying that ML would mind her past. But that was the last thing in ML’s mind. It was the first time FL truly experienced making love with a man. They tricked the guard to enter the cell and then took over their uniforms to escape the dungeon.
They ran as fast as they can until they reached the cliff. ML can see the Yan Nan Hou Fu has lighted up and know very soon they will track them down. ML said to FL that she will regret saving him and pushed her down. ML saw FL fell into the river. ML jumped as well but not into the river. He hid underneath a big rock until the searching party left. The next day, ML bumped into Mo Shang and his people. ML got saved at last.
Ever since the incident in Bei Guo, ML has never had a peaceful sleep at night. He yearns for the warm of FL’s body. After his return, there were pretty girls and boys presented to him. ML failed to find the safe and the peaceful feelings that he experienced in FL’s embrace. ML laughed at himself for thinking about the cheap prostitute like FL.
6 months later…..
Yan Zi Ji accused of treason but he managed to escape. ML asks Qing Shuang to go kill Yan Zi Ji. Yan Zi Ji saved Qing Shuang from being punished the first time she tried to kill ML. Ever since that incident, Qing Shuang has fallen in love with ML instead. When she failed in her second assassination attempt on ML’s live, she changed side to become ML’s woman instead.
FL saved by the owner of a charity home. FL broke her leg and it was not properly treated. The injury had caused continuous pain and affected her movement. FL was called A Shui by the people in the charity home. FL continued to work hard to support herself. In the morning, FL set up a stall to sell pancake. Everyone talks about the upcoming war but to the poor, it makes no difference.
One morning, a butcher opposite her stall ordered her pancake. When FL was crossing the street, a group of men in military uniform riding very fast passing the town. FL fell down and almost got stepped. Luckily the butcher managed to pull her aside. Suddenly, a man stopped and look back at her. The man is ML and he surprised that FL survived the fall. ML took FL back to his camp. ML asked where FL stayed but she refused to tell knowing that he will kill all the people who have contact with her for the past 6 months. FL told ML, she did not tell anyone about him. ML fed FL a medicine to make her forget partial of her memories. ML kept FL with him. At last, ML managed to find the peaceful sleep that he yearns for the past 6 months.
FL followed ML back to Han Nan. Everyone wondered what ML saw in FL as she looks very ordinary. FL is a quiet person with few words. FL knows everyone looks down on her and she also tried to avoid them and often keep to herself. ML did not seek her out after he returned to Wang Fu. At first, FL was not comfortable living at the Wang Fu but slowly she adapted herself.
One day, ML found FL helping the gardener. The gardener is the only person in the Wang Fu that treated her sincerely. ML took FL to the bathroom to wash up after he saw the dirt on her hands. ML threw FL into a tub of water. FL almost got drowned if she was not pulled up by ML. No one knows that ML only used FL to get a peaceful sleep.
One day during a hot afternoon, two serving maids complained about Qing Shuang. They asked FL to bring the sour plum juice to ML’s room on their behalf. Qing Shuang was in ML’s room. When ML saw FL, he asked her to stay on to serve them. ML started to touch Qing Shuang body openly and planning to have sex with her in front of FL. For many years, FL has trained herself to do more and think less. FL did not pay any attention to the two people on the bed. Suddenly something hit her head to get her attention. FL did not hear ML calling for her. ML called FL useless and punished her to kneel outside his room. ML then kicked Qing Shuang out of his room as well. ML saw the bracelet that FL often touched and asked for it. In front of FL, ML destroyed the bracelet. At that moment, FL felt very small and worthless just like the bracelet. ML got even angrier seeing FL not affected by his punishment, kicked her in her chest. FL fell down but then very soon, went back to kneel at the same place. FL fainted at last.
When FL woke up, she saw ML drinking on his own. ML invited FL to drink with him. This is the gentle ML that FL has seen in the past. ML asked FL whether she likes him. FL said yes knowing that she will never say that in front of him when he is sober. ML make love to FL after that.
The next morning, FL woke up alone. ML has left to meet with his future wife from the West. ML has been gone for a few months. When there was news that ML is returning with a new Wang Fei, the housekeeper ordered everyone to the gate to welcome him. FL stared at a man riding on a horse due to his good look and suddenly something hit her until she fell down. Then a voice shouted at her for her rudeness for staring at 13th prince. The voice came from ML. ML asked FL to punish with 30 beatings. 13th prince and Mo Shang tried to stop ML got rejected. ML jealous when he saw FL looking at 13th prince instead.
After FL got beaten, the gardener sent FL back to her room. That night, ML went to FL’s room. Despite her injury, ML could not stop himself from having sex with FL. FL thought she has gone back to the military camp. FL fainted and slept for a few days. FL does not understand why ML still want her and anyway she has nothing to offer him. One morning, FL suddenly woke up and slowly picked herself up to drink the water in her room and then changed her clothes and walked out to look for food. FL survived again.
FL knows ML will not let her go if she wants to leave. One day, Mo Shang saw ML hurt FL again and tried to stop him. Mo Shang questioned ML’s cruelty of hurting someone who saved him and told ML that FL once said ML is like the moon in the sky. Mo Shang asked ML to give FL to her but got rejected.
One night, FL walked out of her room to sit in the courtyard and then she heard someone playing a pipa. She followed the music and saw it was Qing Shuang playing a sad tune and crying. When she tried to retreat, she bumped into a strong body. It was ML. ML went to look for FL and then saw her sitting outside gazing at the sky and then followed her into the garden. ML quietly took FL back to her room. ML could not stop himself from getting close to FL. Once again, he spends a passionate night in FL’s room.
A man offered Qing Shuang a chance to become ML’s Ce Fei. All Qing Shuang needs to do is just to take FL away. FL got abducted. ML got angry when Mo Shuang questioned ML for putting too much importance on a cheap prostitute like FL. Mo Shuang told ML that she loves him and she has been on the sideline looking at him with Yan Zi Ji previously. ML shocked as Mo Shuang feels this way as she is his little sister.
FL tied up in a cabin on a ship. FL has no idea where the ship is going. Suddenly Mo Shuang appeared and fed FL a poison pill. Not too long after that, ML came to rescue FL. Mo Shuang told ML that she has fed FL a poison pill and if he wants the antidote, he needs to marry her. ML rejected her proposal and took FL away. ML was not worried as he has the antidote for the poison.
ML confessed his love to FL at last. ML found out that FL has actually recovered her memories for a long time but did not say anything. ML felt bad that despite all the injuries and hurt he caused her, FL has continued to love him. ML started to make amends to FL. He found a doctor that can treat FL’s leg. ML also took FL to see her birth mother. FL did not go in to see her but watch from a distance that her mother has a loving family and she does not want to disrupt her life. ML then planned a grand wedding for FL. FL refused at first knowing her past will humiliate ML but he refused to re-but. FL yearns for her own children when she bumped into Xiang Yu selling buns. Xiang Yu has married with a few kids. FL got her wish at last. FL gave birth to a pair of twin boys. 8 years later, FL got pregnant again and gave birth to a triplet.